‘She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn’t supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something.’ –Rainbow Rowell, Eleanor & Park
Eleanor is fat.
Eleanor also thinks she’s fat.
She probably isn’t as fat as she thinks she is …
And she definitely isn’t as disgusting as she thinks she is. She isn’t disgusting at all.
This question — Eleanor isn’t really fat, is she? — comes up fairly regularly for me. And sometimes (not always!), I feel like people expect me to reassure them:
“Don’t worry. Eleanor isn’t really fat. You weren’t imagining a fat person making out in the back of a car; that would be gross. She’s actually just curvy. Like Marilyn Monroe. Or Jennifer Love Hewitt.”
I don’t say in the book (Eleanor & Park) with any narrative authority exactly how fat Eleanor is, though many of the characters say what they think …
Eleanor sees herself as huge and repulsive. The kids in the neighborhood call her “Big Red,” which makes Park’s dad expect her to be bigger. Park is embarrassed by Eleanor for all sorts of reasons, and gives us the clearest physical description of her body:
Why hadn’t he expected her to be so beautiful? To have so much negative space? He closed his eyes and saw her again. A stack of freckled heart-shapes, a perfectly made Dairy Queen ice cream cone. Like Betty Boop drawn with a heavy hand.
But none of that answers the how fat question.
And that’s because I don’t think it’s important. I know how I picture Eleanor — but I don’t care how you picture Eleanor. And I think drawing a line between “sort of fat, but only by 21st-Century American standards” and “really, really fat” is depressing.
I mean, who I am to draw that line? Who are you? And where do we start?
Park thinks Eleanor is beautiful. He loves her for who she is on the inside, and he loves her for who she is on the outside. He wants to kiss her. He wants to have sex with her. And it isn’t because he’s brave and deep — it’s because he’s attracted to her.
This is how attraction works.
Is Eleanor fat? Yes.
How fat? That’s up to you.
Does it matter?
THE VERSION OF US BY LAURA BARNETT
A man is walking down a country lane. A woman, cycling towards him, swerves to avoid a dog. On that moment, their future hinges. There are three possible outcomes, three small decisions that could determine the rest of their life.Eva and Jim are nineteen and students at Cambridge when their paths first cross in 1958. And then there is David, Eva’s then-lover, an ambitious actor who loves Eva deeply. The Versions of Us follows the three different courses their lives could take following this first meeting. Lives filled with love, betrayal, ambition but through it all is a deep connection that endures whatever fate might throw at them.
The Versions of Us explores the idea that there are moments when our lives might have turned out differently, the tiny factors or decisions that could determine our fate, and the precarious nature of the foundations upon which we build our lives. It is also a story about the nature of love and how it grows, changes and evolves as we go through the vagaries of life.
1. Even when I first read the summary of the book, I was really intrigued and I wasn’t disappointed. The book doesn’t let you to get bored, because of the strong plot. Every version has different characters and follows a completely different path of the other two. I know some people may find it difficult to keep up with all versions and lose track of what version they are in. That wasn’t a problem for me, because it’s quite obvious and the writer makes it very clear to understand which version you are in.
2. One thing that impressed me most of all -except the plot- is the writing. The writer has an enchanting way with words, the descriptions are amazing and the characters felt so real. Every one of them and believe me, they’re many. I honestly cannot find a fault in Barnett’s writing!
3. I was really curious and tried to read as quickly as I could, because I desperately wanted to find the ending and when I finally made it, I was surprised once more. I expected all the stories to be combined and have the same end, but they didn’t. Instead, each story has its own ending and catharsis. I was really satisfied and when I closed the book, I felt the need to read it all over again, not wanting to let it go just yet.
I really admire Barnett for writing three amazing stories and not just one, especially when they’re so beautifully written. I cannot describe how impressed I am with this book! This story is unique and so heart-warming! Highly recommended!
Waterstones described it as ‘One Day’ meets ‘Sliding Doors’, are you intrigued?
Something to be excited for: ‘Trademark Films’ have already optioned the television rights for The Versions of Us saying it would be a compelling TV drama.
I plan to write this post for ages and when I mean ages, it’s almost two months since this post was in the draft section and more than five when I first had this idea. Why I decided to finish it is because I want to express my frustration when it comes to overhyped prereleased books and see what everyone else thinks.
I usually learn about prereleased book is from booktube comminity or twitter; lot of people talk about how amazing this book is and they can’t wait to read it when it gets published and stuff, but honestly how do they know that they’re going to like it, just because they read the symmary? It doesn’t make sense to me.
Personally, there is so much pressure put on me that I have to like the book and eventually when I don’t like it so much as everybody else, I wonder what’s wrong with me instead of what’s wrong with the book. I feel that it’s an emotional blackmail and then you feel like you’re an outsider, someone that people will hate if you say that you are one of those who didn’t like it. Also, I think that prereleases take away all the fun of reading the book. From my latest experience, there was so much hyped about Red Queen and I was so eager to read it and when I finally did, I felt like I was spoiled when I wasn’t. I don’t know how if you understand what I mean, but somehow when the book is so hyped before it’s released, it’s usually a let down. The reason I’m saying this is not because I’m so critical but I think my biggest issue is that I expect the book to be perfect. I more likely going to find faults because I instictively desprove the fact that this book is amazing. It’s not that I want the book to be bad, I just don’t believe when people say “it’s a masterpiece”
I really don’t know what to say except that I lately try not to get involved in the bookish community as much as I did before. I have discovered that the buzz takes away the fun of reading..
Manhattan is twenty-one stories under water and cut off from the rest of the United States as the ocean levels keep rising. Simone Pierce is one of the best investigators and conveniently she is born and raised in the big city, which makes it easier to attract a client who is interested in buildings. As she guides deCosta through the city, her latest case has an unexpected turn. Her target is murdered and Simone soon reveals old secrets that somehow seem unreal. They are valiable and Simone isn’t the only one looking for them.
I really liked the plot of this book from the start, only because it felt original, it’s nothing like I’ve read before, the plot doesn’t focus only on one case, but two that are linked in someway, which makes it more interesting. When I read the symmary, I was really fascinated by the world building and even though there isn’t any mention of how everything got there, it seems like it’s not important at all. We are talking about a crime set in a post-apocalyptic New York!
As for the writing, if you are love details and descriptions, you’ll definetely appreciate this book. Personally, I am not too excited with the writing, I mean I loved it in the beginning and I really enjoyed the long paragraphs, but I got tired in the middle, because of the slow pacing. I think that the author’s writing style is really good, but there are so many uneccessary details that distract you from enjoying the plot. For example, the author tell us the background of every character, but in the end I realized that you don’t know the main characters as deeply as you should.
If you are a fan of science fiction and crime, then I guess this book is for you! It was fun to read and it only took me a day to finish.
To me, the best time of reading is when I’m alone. I love my solitude and when I don’t want to feel lonely, I always pick a book and usually biographies. For a strange reason, I wish to feel close to somebody, understand and feel his heart. Music helps a lot.
This is a mixtape of all the instrumental songs I listen to while I’m reading. You have no idea how much it calms me. I strongly advise you to take some time and listen to it, it’s wonderful.
Close your eyes and feel the air touches your cheek, as you take a deep breath. While you stand in the middle of nowhere, keep your eyes wide shut and let the world eat you alive.
Many thanks to the publisher and Genn for sending this book. I’m so grateful!
RED QUEEN BY VICTORIA AVEYARD
It’s been over a month since I finished Red Queen and honestly I wasn’t planning to write a review, only because the majority of people loved this book; which is great if you did, but I don’t belong in the majority. No, I didn’t hate it, I liked it but I have a strong impression that I’ve read this book many times. Way too many times.
Everything started great, but as I kept reading I got really frustrated because Red Queen reminded me a lot of The Hunger Games and the more I think about it, more similarities I find they have. It just didn’t fell original.
But, let’s take everything from the start…
1. I loved the world building, because of the great details like the fact that when Silvers blush, their cheeks go white. The only thing that was missing from the book is how everything started, why Silvers have abilities and Reds don’t and things that send the foundation to the plot. Also, there is no reason given as to why the different houses have different abilities and I think that there should be at least some sort of explanation to that.
2. What frustrated me the most was the fact that Mare two days ago didn’t even know she had abilities and then she knows perfectly how to use them and can basically defeat anyone. Not to mention that she accepted to fight with Evangeline and she did pretty good. So unrealistic! If we take Harry Potter for example, Harry at the end of book one was a terrible wizard and didn’t know what he was doing and if Rowling had decided to make Harry great from the start, six books wouldn’t exist, right?
3. I know that some people hate love triangles and I can see why, but personally I like a little bit of angst. Unfortunately, I hated this love triangle as much as I did in the Hunger Games, in both cases the protagonist doesn’t know who to pick because they both treat her well and she kinda feels guilty if she picks one of them and in the end, she ends up loving both of them and because one turns out to be bad, she chooses the other.
4. To tell you the truth, I loved Cal from the beginning but I think their relationship is flat and I didn’t get what Maven said that Cal would always choose her over his country. Why? How did he come to love her so much? They kissed one time, there were some looks and of course the dance lessons. We only get to see one of the infamous dance lessons and the others are symmarized. I think that there should have been more detailed descriptions, so the reader can understand the relationship the author wanted to build, in order to believe the fact that Cal would actually choose her. Thankfully, he didn’t because I’d be more pissed if he did.
5. As for the famous twist, I found it predictable. I don’t know, maybe it was the fact that everyone was talking of it and I even though I wasn’t spoiled, I sort of expecting something to happen. But I guess this fact doens’t chance my overall opinion about the book and of course I didn’t rate it based on it.
Overall, I thought that there were great potential for the book and I was super excited to read it but I felt like the characters were pretty ordinary, the writing wasn’t that great; nothing to impress me and I found the plot amazing but as I said wasn’t original.
My exams are finally over and now I’m able to read as many books as I want until the end of the summer. How cool is that? I literally can’t imagine something better. As a bookworm, it’s totally natural to have a huge tbr, but I think that I overdone it. Yesterday, as I was searching what book to read, I actually realised that my unread books are more than my read ones. I don’t know but for a strange reason, I really want to read a book with romance, lot of action and magic and the only genre that includes all those things is fantasy. I freaking love fantasy!
I started this month by reading fantasy, because I was on a reading slump and I wanted something great to make me love reading and then I picked up Uprooted. I remember that it was past midnight and I planned to read couple of pages, just to help me sleep, but unfortunately I had quite the opposite effect. The ten pages became fifty and then over hundread and before I realised it, I had almost finished half of the book. It was 4 pm and I really needed to sleep, so I went to bed, still thinking about it. I loved the book and just because I didn’t really want it to end, I decided to start another fantasy and one book became another and right now I finished Red Queen.
Checking out my bookshelves and my unread books again, I decided to start a marathon with all the books I have on my bookshelves and then when I finish those, I intend to buy some from my tbr. Here they are:
The books i don’t own but I want to read:
BOOKS I OWN AND HAVEN’T READ YET:
FANTASY BOOKS I READ THIS MONTH (in order):
1. Uprooted by Naomi Novik
2. Tribute by Ellen Renner
3. Outcaste by Ellen Renner
4. Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard
Have you read any of these? You probably have! Which one do you suggest me to start first? Which ones are on your tbr?
This is the second book of the Tribute series, therefore this review contains spoilers. If you want to know more of the series, you can read it here. But, if you don’t mind spoilers then you can continue, I promise you that I won’t reveal something about the plot.
This book starts with Zara, who has taken a refugee in the Maker city of Gengst, where she knows that if her identity is uncovered she’ll die. She must live without magic and even though she and Aidan are finally together, her new life is way far from what she imagined. Zara hates the Maker world and their beliefs and she must fight for her rights, for women’s right to be exact. As the Knowledge Seekers work together to build machines powerful enough to end the centuries-long war between the mages and the non-magical Makers, Zara must face the evil that is her heritage, uncover the truth behind the childhood tragedy that haunts her – and find the strength to believe in herself.
1. The first half of the book is all about war and has many action scenes, that you’ll probably love. Personally, even though I enjoyed them, I got a little bit bored, because there isn’t any character development or changes in the plot. But, Renner did an excellent job and the descriptions are amazing.
2. Those who wanted more Zara and Aidan scenes, they’ll be pleased in this book. We see them talk and have some cute moments and their relationship take the next step.
3. The writing is good and the vivid descriptions make it even better. The plot is strong and even though there aren’t so many twists, it’s still interesting. In this book, we learn more about the Maker city, their coulture and we see how feminism is examined.
4. The ending is epic. Couldn’t expect more.
Overall, I really enjoyed this book and it was great to learn about their world, it’s a really good sequel to the series and we see more of the characters and their actions.
The Edge Of Dark follows the lives of two different people set in different centuries. At the beginning of the novel, we see Roz as a child and the incident that caused her parent’s death. Years later, Roz returns in York to work as events director at Holmwood House, when at the same time, truths about her family come out. The only problem is that memories begin to come flooding back, but what if the memories are not her one but a woman’s called Jane who lived more than four hundred years earlier?
Jane is the eldest daughter of a butcher who lived in York in the 1500s. As a father he’s anxious to get his daughter married and when he finds wealthy Robert Holmwood, he push her into this. Soon, she discovers that he’s not what she expected and she longs for a child of her own. But Jane’s desire to be a mother eventually grows so strong that she makes a promise she could live to regret
This book is a brilliant historical time-slip. There’s a sense of supernatural, mystery and romance, Pamela Hartshorne has written three novels of of this type, but this one is the first I read. Honestly, I didn’t expect it to be so thrilling as to make me want to read some of her earlier works.
As a fan of historical fiction, loving the story set in the past was inevitable. Jane’s story is heartbreaking and for a strange reason, she reminded me a lot of Eyre; her life and the way it’s described that she isn’t beautiful.
The transitions between past and present felt natural and smooth, even though I couldn’t predict when they were going to happen. I think that the scenes where Roz is slipping into 16th century are so masterfully written that they flow seamlessly, almost like watching a film. Their connection and Roz’s past are skillfully revealed and Pamela’s writing made it easier for me to love the story.
It’s totally a page turner and unputdownable. It gave me a book hangover that I couldn’t read anything else for a few days. You know it’s one of those books when you’re so eager to finish, but at the same time I didn’t want it to end.
I haven’t mentioned it yet but how beautiful the cover is with this Tudor’s necklace.
*this book was sent to me by the publisher and Lousie
in exchange for an honest review.
THE GLAM GUIDE BY FLEUR DE FORCE
It was many years ago when I first saw a Fleur’s video on youtube and I instantly fall in love with her channel and ever since I’m a big fan. Her videos always make my day and her love of beauty, makes me passionate about it too. Personally, I think that she’s the best beauty guru, she’s even better than Tanya and Zoe of course. So, as you can probably guessed already when I found out that she was publishing a book, instantly I put it on my tbr list and that was when Phoebe from Headline, was giving away three copies of the book. I still can’t believe that I won one of them.
Let me start by mentioning how pretty this book is and also that I feel the need to congratulate the team of Headline for the amazing job they did on this book; it may be the prettiest book I have on my bookshelf. The cover is gorgeous; so bright and colourful and the watercolor marks make it even better. The photos and the illustrations that every page has are so beautiful and Fleur looks stunning in the pictures. Also, I have to mention that the pages smell amazing, the scent is so strong that everytime I turned a page, I stuck my nose on the paper, just to smell it better. God, how much I love this smell! Another small detail that I have to mention is that the fonts they used are my favourites.
This book is a little bit different from a guide, it’s more than that. This book simply contains tips and advices from Fleur for living a glam life, it doens’t have must’s and have-to’s as other guides and that’s why I loved it. It’s about developing your better self based on your own sense of style and learning to be fabulous in your own way. This book contains topics as beauty, fashion, travel, fitness, dating and even blogging. My favourite chapter is “Life, Love, Dreams and Everything In Between”.
This is definitely something that is thorough from the outset giving you informative experiences which doesn’t completely revolve around Fleur herself meaning its more relatable to the likes of you, even me.I love how she’s covered so many topics from how to choose a foundation, to creating a perfect manicure, it’s all there. She’s even written about DIY face masks and recipes and she gives some very useful tips that most people don’t know, like how to keep jewellery shiny. Then, she talks about dating and what to wear on your first date, what to talk, how to set life goals and points out how important self confidence is.